I Wish

Right now it seems inviting,

I can clearly see it,

Just one small cut,

Not deep,

It sounds so good right now,

I can't get it off my mind,

I keep thinking,

What if I do just once,

Nobody would care,

Only I would know,

I want someone to say something,

Just recognize how bad I feel,

I want them to look past the mask,

The one I put on everyday,

It used to be my real expression,

Until I decided to tell her who I was,

It was a snowball effect from there,

Now it feel like she could never care,

She said she was excepting,

Told me she was OK,

She never acts like it,

Hardly tells me,

That she loves me anymore,

Like she doesn't feel that way,

Whenever I bring up the topic,

She makes up excuses,

She criticizes me,

For being who I am,

It hurts inside,

And I don't know,

How I'm supposed to let it out,

I want to scream,

Now I'm thinking about that dark sensation,

It's wandering through my mind,

Just once,

It would make everything better,

I sat there,

In my bathroom,

Waiting with a blade,

I was ready to try,

A second before I did,

I hear a knock on the bathroom door,

It's her, 

She says dinner's ready,

She was the one,

That caused me all the pain,

The one that I could tell everything,

And now nothing to,

Now she stopped me,

From taking that first step,

And feeling just a little better,

It still runs through my head,

Whenever I want to talk to her,

I try to bring it up slowly,

Tell her its part of who I am,

And tell her how much I care,

I don't think she realizes,

How much she's hurting me,

I always wish that,

She would just accept me for who I am.

The Way You Make Me Feel

I saw the stares,

The weird looks,

Of people walking by,

Almost every person glared,

I heard people whisper,

Never look directly into our eyes,

Just walk quickly,

And just walk by,

But the thing is,

I really don't mind,

Other people have different opinions,

But I don't care what others think,

Because when I look into your eyes,

I get butterflies,

When I see your pretty face,

My stomach flies away,

I can't imagine a better feeling,

Then the one you give me everyday,

I look forward to seeing you,

Can never turn away,

Every minute and every hour,

You are running through my mind,

I have never felt better,

In my entire life,

Losing you would break my heart,

Nobody can change my mind,

I would go through anything,

Just to be with you,

To feel your hand in mine,

Your body close,

To hear that laugh,

That could lighten up any room,

To get that feeling,

In the pit of my stomach,

The one that feels,

Like anything is possible,

You change everything,

Because when I'm with you,

The stares disappear,

And whispers vanish,

Like someone dropped,

A thick blanket of fog,

Over the whole world,

And everybody else disappeared,

Like nobody else matters,

Like it's only me and you.

The Light That Brightens My Day

I wanted to write about sadness,

The blackness that used to surround me,

The terrible things I was going through,

The emptiness,

Then you came along,

You brightened up my world,

Everything disappeared,

Nothing sad anymore,

You always make me smile,

You are the sunshine,

I do not see darkness,

I only see hope,

You make my heart beat faster,

My stomach fills with butterflies,

When I even just think about your name,

I can't help it,

My head is filled with thoughts,

All of them of you,

Just can't forget,

The way you make me feel,

You mean the world to me,

Never gotten you off my mind,

I have never been happier,

Not in my entire life,

The hours without you,

Are way to long,

The hours with you,

Are way to short,

I don't know why,

I haven't seen you this whole time,

Now I have realized,

Just how much you mean to me,

You are the most amazing person,

So sweet, cute, funny,

There are no words to describe,

How wonderful you are,

You made my life a better life,

So I would like to thank you for that,

It means so much to me,

But you still mean the most.

Forgetting

You used to be my sunshine,

The light that brightens up my day,

The joy I found,

When I went to school,

I used to see you everyday,

Be so happy,

Look forward to that smile,

When I pass you in the hall,

Now your just a shadow,

Another person in my life,

A friend,

Not close but not far,

Now my world is better,

Now that the heart ache has passed,

Forgetting is much easier,

Then I ever thought,

I have someone who cares about me,

Likes me for exactly who I am,

I totally forgot about you,

You never come up again,

I have someone special,

They brighten up my day,

I get butterflies when I see her,

Even when I just say her name,

The future looks much brighter,

She knows how to make me smile,

Can't forget their laughter,

Want to be with her all the time,

I forgot the past,

The present is very clear,

I can't wait for the future,

I want it to be here.

Life and Dreams

Life's to short to live in the dark,

To do nothing with it,

You have to enjoy what you have.

You can't go day by day,

Without accomplishing anything,

Just sitting around.

You need to get up,

Take chances,

Takes risks.

You can't change the world from your bed,

Or from your couch,

You need to get up.

If you do your part,

You can help,

Just try.

You want to have stories to tell,

When you are older,

To tell to your kids.

These stories don't make themselves,

You have to create them,

Live them.

You only have one life,

Filled with choices,

Full of decisions.

You can change your future,

You can live your dreams,

You just have to go for it.

Take the first step, 

You don't want to have regrets,

Live your life to the fullest.

If you view the glass as half full,

You will see the brighter side of everything,

Look forward to tomorrow.

Sure there are the horrors of life,

Everyone has those days,

But you have to make the best with what you have.

You can't change the past,

You can think about the present,

And the future is all yours.

Get off your chair,

Your bed,

Your couch.

You can change the world,

All you have to do,

Is follow your dreams.

I Don't Ask For Much

The world can be an ugly place,

It is full of people who discriminate,

The world can be a pretty place,

There are some people who care,

I don't ask for much,

I have friends and family,

People who care for me,

People who love me,

I don't ask for much,

I just ask that you treat me,

How you would treat yourself,

Just be kind,

I don't ask for much,

I just want a chance to show you,

Who I am,

My interests and my dreams,

I don't ask for much,

Just get to know my personality,

You may think I'm different,

But we are all people.

The world can be dark,

Full of people who deceive,

The world can be bright,

Full of acceptance and happiness,

I never ask for much,

We meet so many people,

Meeting you may just be,

A fraction of my life,

I never ask for much,

We don't have to be friends,

Maybe just acquaintances,

I just don't want to be enemies,

I never ask for much,

Do not judge me by the language I speak,

Do not judge me by my looks,

By the people I love,

I never ask for much,

I just ask for peacefulness,

Except my language, my style,

The girls and guys I fall for.

The world can be cruel,

Judgement around every corner,

The world can be compassionate,

Consideration floating through the air,

I don't want much,

Just some kindness towards everyone,

No intolerance is all I need,

You'd be surprised how nice it would be,

I don't want much,

Let me chose what I want,

Let me live my life,

The way I choose,

I don't want much,

I don't judge you,

I let you live your dreams,

I respect who you choose to be,

I don't want much,

All I ask of you,

Is that you let me be exactly who I am,

Accept me for me.